Bonjour and Bon nuit,

I am at work and feel as if I am slowly withering away.

I have so many things I want to say, so I’ll just blurb it out real fast before they slither out of my ear and wisp away in the wind.

I feel like I am wasting my fun time away – I don’t go out in the late hours of the night, or go on road trips, or drink with my friends, or really do anything with my friends anymore. I’m committed to a huge thing now, and two jobs now this summer. I won’t deny and say the money isn’t nice, but I can’t help but feel like I could be spending my time more… carefree-ly…is that a word?

I’ve mentioned before that I go out of my way to NOT complain, –even now, my brain is telling me to quit this post and go about my night. But I feel like I NEED to get this out. I don’t want to burden my friends or my family, listening to my silly qualms. I’m sure I’ll feel differently a month from now about my life, maybe GLAD even, that I didn’t do a bunch of stupid stuff in my youth.

BUT ISN’T THAT WHAT YOUTH IS FOR?

Adventure, and love, and… discovery